The weekend before Christmas I slept and slept almost like a hibernation for a weekend, but I did feel better for it by Monday. Tuesday Bob and I went to Telford to finish the Christmas shopping, we had a lovely day, bought loads of goodies, had a nice lunch, talked about everything except us. Telford is good for me to go to the shopping centre is indoors and flat and there is a Debenhams! Bob has decided to come to my flat for Christmas dinner, so at least we will be together for some of Christmas day. I didn't sleep at all Tuesday night, mind worked overtime thinking about me and Bob and Christmas. Wednesday came and I knew something was wrong with me, my stomach just didn't feel right! By the time I got to work I felt worse, I just kept feeling sick. I know nobody likes being sick but I hate it, I'm a complete baby, I feel like I'm going to choke, and I can't breath so I panic when it happens. By 1.30pm my colleagues felt I should go home, I think I looked quite grey and maybe a shade of green too! I just made it to the flat and it started and didn't really finish till about 2 am. I didn't sleep at all and at 6.30am I looked on the computer for the first bus to Aberystwyth, it was 7.30am, I wasn't feeling sick any more so I got ready and caught the bus. At 8.15am I was in lidl's doing my veg shopping and it was great, really quiet, by the time I was coming out though the crowds had started, I treated myself to a cooked breakfast then went to Iceland store and bought more goodies. That's what I do when I'm depressed buy food! I have enough food till Easter! By the time i got back to my flat I was tired, so the rest of Thursday I slept. I woke early on Friday felt very stiff as I had slept over 12 hours and I was still in the same position when I woke that I had been when I got into bed. It took me a while to get up and get breakfast, Cath popped in on me and we exchanged gifts and chatted for a while. After she went I decided I needed a bath, so that took a while, getting in and out is so painful, but I do enjoy the soak especially if i put in epsom salts.
The Friday before Christmas is known as mad Friday and people go to the pubs to celebrate. Jon and Sarah had asked me to go, and I was looking forward to it. I got ready and met him at 3pm, he was with most of the mechanics from the town and his boss. We had a good time, Sarah met us at about 7pm, Jon was under the influence of alcohol by then! I was sober, I had been drinking rum and coke, but it is a drink that doesn't really affect me so I was okay. By 8pm I was tired so Sarah walked with me to the flat. By 8.30pm I was in bed!. Jon and sarah came in about 12.30am, I had woken a bit earlier, Jon was now sober!. We chatted had a cigarette and a cup of tea then went to bed.
Took me a while to get to sleep, I could hear the rain lashing down and then my brain started thinking!
Saturday, 24 December 2011
Monday, 12 December 2011
M.E.still sleeping, working and a weekend with Katie
Bob brought Bobby to my flat on Monday evening and I was told all about the concert, Bobby was on a "high" and excited, but not looking forward to his journey back to Scotland. We all had dinner together before he left. He caught the 8pm train from Machynlleth to Birmingham. About 8.30pm my phoned rang and it showed it was "Bobby" calling, well all I could understand was their was an emergency and he was upset and angry and I was tired, I had planned an early night.
Bobby had got his bus ticket out, which was from Birmingham to Aberdeen and looked at it and noticed he had made a mistake, the bus ticket was only valid for the previous night, he should have stayed in Birmingham after the concert and boarded the bus at 2.30am. Of course the ticket office was now closed, their was nothing anyone could do. Bobby was panicking and angry, wondering how he was going to get back. It was a freezing cold night. He stayed in the train station in Birmingham for a while, but he didn't feel safe their. So he went to the bus station he usually caught his bus from, the bus company he had gone with this time had just dropped him a bus stop and had told him this was where he should be for catching the bus back. So at about 1.45am he leaves the bus stop for the 30minute walk to the bus stop. He thought he could still catch this bus if he explained what had happened and he would pay for a new ticket. When he got to the bus stop another man was their and it turned out that he should have gone back the previous night also. Eventually the bus came, they were not allowed to get on, so another frantic phone, by this time I was frantic too worrying about him wandering around in the middle of the night in Birmingham. So I told him to go back to the bus station, at least he would be warm and he could sort out another bus to get back. He got a bus about6.30am to Manchester then had to wait a couple of hours then he got a bus to Aberdeen. He arrived at 10.30pm! A,very long journey back not one that I could have done.
The rest of the week passed as I slept and worked, then it got to Friday and I left work midday caught the bus to Aberystwyth, had a coffee and 2 cigarettes before getting the bus to Carmarthen.As usual I fell asleep. I always do when travelling lol. The bus arrived at 4.40pm Katie would be picking me up at 6.00pm so I went and had a look at the big shops that I don't get to see very often. I breathed in slowly when I entered my favourite shop....Debenhams.. I love the smell of all the perfumes... its my kind of shop! I had been buying things on line so I had £15 on my beauty card to spend so I headed straight to the perfumery counters...found one I liked straight away.. Lady Millions and their was 15% off so I had a bottle of lovely perfume for £13 my present to me for Christmas and what a bargain. I needed a coffee and a sit down after that excitement and I didn't want to spoil it for me and Katie as we were coming back to the shops tomorrow afternoon. It was nearly 6pm so went to meet my daughter. He bump was the first thing I saw, Charlie has been doing a lot of growing inside his mum tummy. We soon arrived at hers and Ross's new house. Its lovely and big with a gorgeous kitchen, large lounge with a conservatory. Then I saw the new sofa's, oh they are so comfortable and snug and then the huge marble table, what a statement piece it is... wow is all I could say. Ross came home from work got changed and he decided he was going to cook us a lovely dinner which he did and we were all stuffed afterwards. I sat on the sofa, its one of these corner ones and could have stayed their all night. We chatted for a while, then bed for all of us. Ross went to London in the morning. Me and Katie just pottered for a while then she put her tree up to surprise Matthew when he comes home from his Dads tomorrow. About 3,30pm me and Katie decided to go shopping our first shop... Debenhams I found two aftershave I liked for Bob but couldn't make my mind up. So will take him to Telford.We went other shops, Katie fell in love with these tartan boot slippers so I brought them for her to go with her other Christmas present which is perfume Poison Midnight, Katie found some presents she wanted for Ross so it was a good afternoon shopping, But she had to have them when she got home cos she hadn't got any slippers. I wrapped Ross his presents while Katie started doing dinner.Then she started thinking about his birthday in July, it took us till nearly 3am to finally do everything on the net. She was really pleased with what she did.
Well I didn't wake till midday, but I felt happy because I had bought Bob a lovely present too and Katie thought he would like it.
At 4pm Katie went to collect Matthew and said she would be back at 6pm , I thought I would have a rest as I had a 2 hour 30min journey to do myself later, so I rested on the lovely sofa.
Soon it was nearly 6pm and Katie and Matthew were back, think he was shocked to see me their, we had big hugs but he was most insistent that when I went again it had to be a weekend when he was their!
I caught my bus back to Aber, and sat thinking about my lovely weekend, in March Charlie will arrive and I will have two Grandsons, Jon and Sarah were waiting for me in Aber to take me back to my flat, they were staying the night. It was midnight when we went to bed cos of chatting lol, mainly about the wedding in September, we are all so excited about it now, so how we will all be by then I don't know.
Monday I dragged myself out of bed and woke Jon and Sarah as they had work too. I felt tired, not ready for work at all, but I had to go in so I had to get a move on, Thankfully work was quite quiet for a change. Bob came to the flat later as he had borrowed Jon's car, all of us felt like any early night.
Early night we got in a way, then a family prob happened and we were then up most of the night. It was 10am before I got to bed. So Tuesday till about 10pm did not exist for me, nor I think for Bob.Wednesday and Thursday I was like a Zombie, worked Wednesday high on tramadol, so glad we were not too busy. Thursday I didn't see much of it at all. By Friday morning I needed to wash my hair, to most people this is easy, they just stand in shower and shampoo hair. Well my arms felt like lead weights, I have to wash my hair over the sink with a jug! cos I haven't got a shower. I managed, it wasn't the best but it had to do. At least it would look better for work and I would feel better myself. Friday was slow in work too, it usually quietens down just before Christmas, so 2.30pm we closed and I went to pay bills then back to the flat , had a chat with Bob and Jon then cooked a salmon in a bag dinner from Iceland, which actually was quite nice.
Bobby had got his bus ticket out, which was from Birmingham to Aberdeen and looked at it and noticed he had made a mistake, the bus ticket was only valid for the previous night, he should have stayed in Birmingham after the concert and boarded the bus at 2.30am. Of course the ticket office was now closed, their was nothing anyone could do. Bobby was panicking and angry, wondering how he was going to get back. It was a freezing cold night. He stayed in the train station in Birmingham for a while, but he didn't feel safe their. So he went to the bus station he usually caught his bus from, the bus company he had gone with this time had just dropped him a bus stop and had told him this was where he should be for catching the bus back. So at about 1.45am he leaves the bus stop for the 30minute walk to the bus stop. He thought he could still catch this bus if he explained what had happened and he would pay for a new ticket. When he got to the bus stop another man was their and it turned out that he should have gone back the previous night also. Eventually the bus came, they were not allowed to get on, so another frantic phone, by this time I was frantic too worrying about him wandering around in the middle of the night in Birmingham. So I told him to go back to the bus station, at least he would be warm and he could sort out another bus to get back. He got a bus about6.30am to Manchester then had to wait a couple of hours then he got a bus to Aberdeen. He arrived at 10.30pm! A,very long journey back not one that I could have done.
The rest of the week passed as I slept and worked, then it got to Friday and I left work midday caught the bus to Aberystwyth, had a coffee and 2 cigarettes before getting the bus to Carmarthen.As usual I fell asleep. I always do when travelling lol. The bus arrived at 4.40pm Katie would be picking me up at 6.00pm so I went and had a look at the big shops that I don't get to see very often. I breathed in slowly when I entered my favourite shop....Debenhams.. I love the smell of all the perfumes... its my kind of shop! I had been buying things on line so I had £15 on my beauty card to spend so I headed straight to the perfumery counters...found one I liked straight away.. Lady Millions and their was 15% off so I had a bottle of lovely perfume for £13 my present to me for Christmas and what a bargain. I needed a coffee and a sit down after that excitement and I didn't want to spoil it for me and Katie as we were coming back to the shops tomorrow afternoon. It was nearly 6pm so went to meet my daughter. He bump was the first thing I saw, Charlie has been doing a lot of growing inside his mum tummy. We soon arrived at hers and Ross's new house. Its lovely and big with a gorgeous kitchen, large lounge with a conservatory. Then I saw the new sofa's, oh they are so comfortable and snug and then the huge marble table, what a statement piece it is... wow is all I could say. Ross came home from work got changed and he decided he was going to cook us a lovely dinner which he did and we were all stuffed afterwards. I sat on the sofa, its one of these corner ones and could have stayed their all night. We chatted for a while, then bed for all of us. Ross went to London in the morning. Me and Katie just pottered for a while then she put her tree up to surprise Matthew when he comes home from his Dads tomorrow. About 3,30pm me and Katie decided to go shopping our first shop... Debenhams I found two aftershave I liked for Bob but couldn't make my mind up. So will take him to Telford.We went other shops, Katie fell in love with these tartan boot slippers so I brought them for her to go with her other Christmas present which is perfume Poison Midnight, Katie found some presents she wanted for Ross so it was a good afternoon shopping, But she had to have them when she got home cos she hadn't got any slippers. I wrapped Ross his presents while Katie started doing dinner.Then she started thinking about his birthday in July, it took us till nearly 3am to finally do everything on the net. She was really pleased with what she did.
Well I didn't wake till midday, but I felt happy because I had bought Bob a lovely present too and Katie thought he would like it.
At 4pm Katie went to collect Matthew and said she would be back at 6pm , I thought I would have a rest as I had a 2 hour 30min journey to do myself later, so I rested on the lovely sofa.
Soon it was nearly 6pm and Katie and Matthew were back, think he was shocked to see me their, we had big hugs but he was most insistent that when I went again it had to be a weekend when he was their!
I caught my bus back to Aber, and sat thinking about my lovely weekend, in March Charlie will arrive and I will have two Grandsons, Jon and Sarah were waiting for me in Aber to take me back to my flat, they were staying the night. It was midnight when we went to bed cos of chatting lol, mainly about the wedding in September, we are all so excited about it now, so how we will all be by then I don't know.
Monday I dragged myself out of bed and woke Jon and Sarah as they had work too. I felt tired, not ready for work at all, but I had to go in so I had to get a move on, Thankfully work was quite quiet for a change. Bob came to the flat later as he had borrowed Jon's car, all of us felt like any early night.
Early night we got in a way, then a family prob happened and we were then up most of the night. It was 10am before I got to bed. So Tuesday till about 10pm did not exist for me, nor I think for Bob.Wednesday and Thursday I was like a Zombie, worked Wednesday high on tramadol, so glad we were not too busy. Thursday I didn't see much of it at all. By Friday morning I needed to wash my hair, to most people this is easy, they just stand in shower and shampoo hair. Well my arms felt like lead weights, I have to wash my hair over the sink with a jug! cos I haven't got a shower. I managed, it wasn't the best but it had to do. At least it would look better for work and I would feel better myself. Friday was slow in work too, it usually quietens down just before Christmas, so 2.30pm we closed and I went to pay bills then back to the flat , had a chat with Bob and Jon then cooked a salmon in a bag dinner from Iceland, which actually was quite nice.
Monday, 5 December 2011
One or two good bits then not so good for M.E
Monday 21st November I just about made it into work, the weekend had passed to quickly I felt I hadn't recharged my batteries even though I had mostly slept. Work was busy and I felt exhausted afterwards and went to bed for a few hours. When I woke I felt hungry, which is unusual for me on a work day because I have lunch I don't feel hungry in the evening, sometimes I may have the odd chunky kitkat! So I had pate and crackers tomatoes ands red and yellow peppers washed down with a glass of red wine.
Then went to bed.
Tuesday I spent a lovely day with Bob in Aberystwyth and had another custard slice in the Penguin cafe, when we got back to my flat we had some of the soup we had made earlier in the month. I was tired when he left and I knew we had another busy day at work with another Charity stall on the market, so I went to bed. I tossed and turned all night had the dreaded sweats, so when I got up at 7.am I looked worse than I did when i went too bed.
Everything seemed to be happening in slow motion, just because I needed to hurry! I met Brenda at work at 8.30am and we got everything together for the stall. We had a raffle the same as the week before, some of the local businesses had been very kind and donated prizes. The previous week we raised £167 so I was hoping to raise more.
It was quite a cold day, so I'm told! Me with my temperature problems didn't feel cold at all, I was boiling as always. It was a good day, lots of people stopping by the stall and we raised £200, so we were delighted.
I did feel very stiff and sore by the 2.30 so we decided to stop and pack up then draw the raffle.
I had to go and pay some bills before I went back to my flat, once I got back I didn't even have a drink I just lay down on my bed. I woke at 4.30am still clothed and in agony from head to toe.
I got undressed, made myself a drink and had a cigarette and took some painkillers.
Thursday passed as a blur I vaguely remember having a cuppa with Bob, but as for the rest of the day I was oblivious.
Friday no way could I go to work, I just about managed to text a colleague that I wouldn't be in. I texted Bob to tell him I couldn't do anything, I couldn't even get out of bed. I had been looking forward to going to a friends for the night, we play scrabble, drink wine and have a laugh, but I had to cancel on that too.
Bob came gave me my tablets and made me a drink, I didn't have the energy to eat any food. I just slept and slept. Saturday was much the same, only waking for a drink and tablets.I was in agony with my back and legs, had been since Wednesday. Cath got the key to my flat from work and came to see me, made me a drink and we chatted for a while and she took the staff lottery syndicate tickets as i wasn't able to go to the shop. After she went I went back to bed and slept till Sunday morning. When I woke Sunday morning I knew I needed a wash badly! When I get as bad as this having a wash is the last thing on my mind! I got into the bathroom and sat on my stool and washed where I could get too, wrapped a towel round me to dry myself and then cleaned my teeth with my electric toothbrush. I did smell better afterwards but having a wash and putting on clean pyjamas wore me out, so back to bed I went. Sunday afternoon I woke and I decided I needed to strip my bed and put fresh bedding on the bed. I did bits of it over two or three hours, this is a job I hate but have to do it more than most because of the sweating.
Monday again I could not go to work, I spent most of the day staring up at the ceiling or sleeping, I was so fed up of being in pain and being in bed, to me it seemed I had been their for ages. My legs were starting to feel a bit better but my back was still causing me a great deal of pain and discomfort, the only time I could get comfortable for a while was when I was lying down, I couldn't sit for more than 6 or 7 minutes without the pain starting, so no computer, no tv, not that I could really concentrate on anything because of the pain. Tramadol was becoming my best friend again!. Bob came to see how I was doing and I managed to stand while he quickly washed my hair. Its horrible not being able to do the most basic of things, it makes me tearful and sad and frightened for the future.
Tuesday I should have been having my hair done, guess what, Bob had to go and cancel for me. I love having my hair done, I love being pampered full stop! Most of Tuesday was a blur, I actually got up at about 5pm, had a drink with Bob, then Jon came and we chatted for a while. When they both went I had some pate with crackers and a couple of satsumas. For my own sanity I needed to go to work on Wednesday, so I didn't do much that evening just caught up on some of the Emmerdale's that I had missed. Took my night time tablets with painkillers at 9pm and went to bed. I slept till 3.15pm woke because i needed a drink so I had a cigarette too then went back to bed. The alarm woke me at 7am and I started to get ready for work, I was slow to get ready but I managed and I got to work just before 9am, dripping with sweat but happy that I had made it into work. Colleagues commented that I shouldn't have come in and that they could see I was struggling..... yes I was, but I needed to be in work trying to live a normal life as I was starting to get depressed, I could feel it creeping upon me. I'd had some stupid thoughts enter my head and I didn't want to start going down that road. We had such a busy day I was exhausted by the time I got to my flat, no time for a drink or cigarette I just needed to get too bed. I slept till 4.30am Thursday, I woke with the shakes and sweats I hadn't eaten or drank anything since Wednesday lunch time, so it was a can of coke and I finished the pate with some crackers, I felt like I was going to pass out, soon after drinking the coke the feeling passed and I just sat and relaxed for a while. I had planned to go to Aberystwyth with Bob on Thursday but again that was cancelled, I slept most of the day. Bob and Jon came early evening informing me that Bobby was now coming to my flat at 9am Saturday morning, they had been going to get him when he got to Birmingham but now they realised he could get a train to Machynlleth. They were all excited as they were going to see Bryan Adams in concert in Birmingham on the Sunday and also Richard was meeting up with them for a few hours. I went to bed early Friday evening as I felt totally drained of energy. and I knew Bobby would be at my door just gone 9am full of excitement!
I kept waking up all through the night thinking I had heard my doorbell ring. I got up just before 8.30am so as I would be half awake for when Bobby arrived, 2 cups of tea and 2 cigarettes later the doorbell did ring, Bobby had arrived. He had travelled since 7pm the previous night by coach then train and he wasn't even tired. I wish I had half of his energy! We chatted for a while and I stayed up another hour before I had to go back to bed for a couple of hours. Bobby was fine, he was texting his friends and on the computer and watching tv. A couple of hours later I got up again, we chatted for a while then I got ready and we went for a walk round town, Bobby got his haircut, then we went back to the flat. We met Jon later in a pub, we had a drink then they boys went off to Cemmaes to stay with Bob.
It was nice seeing two of my boys together and I wished I could have gone with them to Birmingham then I would of seen the three boys together.
Sunday I woke feeling like I hadn't slept, I slept most of the day, just getting up for a drink and tablets and the occasional cigarette. I thought of Bob and the boys and I did have a tear or two because one of Bryan Adams songs, Everything I do, I do for you is a song that means alot to me and Bob.
Then went to bed.
Tuesday I spent a lovely day with Bob in Aberystwyth and had another custard slice in the Penguin cafe, when we got back to my flat we had some of the soup we had made earlier in the month. I was tired when he left and I knew we had another busy day at work with another Charity stall on the market, so I went to bed. I tossed and turned all night had the dreaded sweats, so when I got up at 7.am I looked worse than I did when i went too bed.
Everything seemed to be happening in slow motion, just because I needed to hurry! I met Brenda at work at 8.30am and we got everything together for the stall. We had a raffle the same as the week before, some of the local businesses had been very kind and donated prizes. The previous week we raised £167 so I was hoping to raise more.
It was quite a cold day, so I'm told! Me with my temperature problems didn't feel cold at all, I was boiling as always. It was a good day, lots of people stopping by the stall and we raised £200, so we were delighted.
I did feel very stiff and sore by the 2.30 so we decided to stop and pack up then draw the raffle.
I had to go and pay some bills before I went back to my flat, once I got back I didn't even have a drink I just lay down on my bed. I woke at 4.30am still clothed and in agony from head to toe.
I got undressed, made myself a drink and had a cigarette and took some painkillers.
Thursday passed as a blur I vaguely remember having a cuppa with Bob, but as for the rest of the day I was oblivious.
Friday no way could I go to work, I just about managed to text a colleague that I wouldn't be in. I texted Bob to tell him I couldn't do anything, I couldn't even get out of bed. I had been looking forward to going to a friends for the night, we play scrabble, drink wine and have a laugh, but I had to cancel on that too.
Bob came gave me my tablets and made me a drink, I didn't have the energy to eat any food. I just slept and slept. Saturday was much the same, only waking for a drink and tablets.I was in agony with my back and legs, had been since Wednesday. Cath got the key to my flat from work and came to see me, made me a drink and we chatted for a while and she took the staff lottery syndicate tickets as i wasn't able to go to the shop. After she went I went back to bed and slept till Sunday morning. When I woke Sunday morning I knew I needed a wash badly! When I get as bad as this having a wash is the last thing on my mind! I got into the bathroom and sat on my stool and washed where I could get too, wrapped a towel round me to dry myself and then cleaned my teeth with my electric toothbrush. I did smell better afterwards but having a wash and putting on clean pyjamas wore me out, so back to bed I went. Sunday afternoon I woke and I decided I needed to strip my bed and put fresh bedding on the bed. I did bits of it over two or three hours, this is a job I hate but have to do it more than most because of the sweating.
Monday again I could not go to work, I spent most of the day staring up at the ceiling or sleeping, I was so fed up of being in pain and being in bed, to me it seemed I had been their for ages. My legs were starting to feel a bit better but my back was still causing me a great deal of pain and discomfort, the only time I could get comfortable for a while was when I was lying down, I couldn't sit for more than 6 or 7 minutes without the pain starting, so no computer, no tv, not that I could really concentrate on anything because of the pain. Tramadol was becoming my best friend again!. Bob came to see how I was doing and I managed to stand while he quickly washed my hair. Its horrible not being able to do the most basic of things, it makes me tearful and sad and frightened for the future.
Tuesday I should have been having my hair done, guess what, Bob had to go and cancel for me. I love having my hair done, I love being pampered full stop! Most of Tuesday was a blur, I actually got up at about 5pm, had a drink with Bob, then Jon came and we chatted for a while. When they both went I had some pate with crackers and a couple of satsumas. For my own sanity I needed to go to work on Wednesday, so I didn't do much that evening just caught up on some of the Emmerdale's that I had missed. Took my night time tablets with painkillers at 9pm and went to bed. I slept till 3.15pm woke because i needed a drink so I had a cigarette too then went back to bed. The alarm woke me at 7am and I started to get ready for work, I was slow to get ready but I managed and I got to work just before 9am, dripping with sweat but happy that I had made it into work. Colleagues commented that I shouldn't have come in and that they could see I was struggling..... yes I was, but I needed to be in work trying to live a normal life as I was starting to get depressed, I could feel it creeping upon me. I'd had some stupid thoughts enter my head and I didn't want to start going down that road. We had such a busy day I was exhausted by the time I got to my flat, no time for a drink or cigarette I just needed to get too bed. I slept till 4.30am Thursday, I woke with the shakes and sweats I hadn't eaten or drank anything since Wednesday lunch time, so it was a can of coke and I finished the pate with some crackers, I felt like I was going to pass out, soon after drinking the coke the feeling passed and I just sat and relaxed for a while. I had planned to go to Aberystwyth with Bob on Thursday but again that was cancelled, I slept most of the day. Bob and Jon came early evening informing me that Bobby was now coming to my flat at 9am Saturday morning, they had been going to get him when he got to Birmingham but now they realised he could get a train to Machynlleth. They were all excited as they were going to see Bryan Adams in concert in Birmingham on the Sunday and also Richard was meeting up with them for a few hours. I went to bed early Friday evening as I felt totally drained of energy. and I knew Bobby would be at my door just gone 9am full of excitement!
I kept waking up all through the night thinking I had heard my doorbell ring. I got up just before 8.30am so as I would be half awake for when Bobby arrived, 2 cups of tea and 2 cigarettes later the doorbell did ring, Bobby had arrived. He had travelled since 7pm the previous night by coach then train and he wasn't even tired. I wish I had half of his energy! We chatted for a while and I stayed up another hour before I had to go back to bed for a couple of hours. Bobby was fine, he was texting his friends and on the computer and watching tv. A couple of hours later I got up again, we chatted for a while then I got ready and we went for a walk round town, Bobby got his haircut, then we went back to the flat. We met Jon later in a pub, we had a drink then they boys went off to Cemmaes to stay with Bob.
It was nice seeing two of my boys together and I wished I could have gone with them to Birmingham then I would of seen the three boys together.
Sunday I woke feeling like I hadn't slept, I slept most of the day, just getting up for a drink and tablets and the occasional cigarette. I thought of Bob and the boys and I did have a tear or two because one of Bryan Adams songs, Everything I do, I do for you is a song that means alot to me and Bob.
Monday, 21 November 2011
A Bad week for M.E.
I think last week was my worst week in a long long time physically and mentally.After work on Monday I just collapsed in bed and stayed their apart from getting a drink a couple of times.Tuesday I woke with sweats and shakes. Bob came over to do something on my computer, I did get up and have a drink with him but apart from that I stayed in bed till 4pm. When i got up I was drenched and so was my bed. Bob washed my hair for me and I changed the bedding. He went at 5.30pm, I had a bowl of Alpen and went back to bed till Wednesday morning.
I woke again drenched so had to wash my hair before work, i just pulled the duvet back and opened the window so it would freshen my bed. I can't keep up with all the washing of bedding and clothes.
The Advice Centre was busy and we also had The Charity stall on the market, we did a raffle and it went well. I got home from work Wednesday at 5pm, I was exhausted, plus I had family concerns which were and still are a worry to me. I just wish I could clear my mind so it rested!.I had a sandwich and a drink and a couple of cigarette's and went to bed, however it wasn't a rest full sleep, I kept waking from nightmares that seemed so real it took me a few minutes to realise they were only dreams. I felt very fatigued physically and totally drained mentally.
Thursday day time I just slept, Bob came over, I think he was worried about me, he made soup for us and I got up, had a wash, he washed my hair again for me. I went to a friends house for an hour or so in the evening, she was having a bodyshop party. I did enjoy it once I got their, I just felt so tired.
Thursday night was the same, I kept having nightmares and waking dripping with sweat and with the shakes, in the end I got up at about 5pm, as I couldn't stand it anymore. My legs and arms hurt and ached, I felt like I had been thrashing about about during the nightmares.
By the time I went to work on Friday I felt as though I should be going back to bed. To make matters worse, in the afternoon we had loads of clients, so we were late finishing.
When I got back to the flat I had a drink and a cigarette and went to bed, I didn't wake till 4.30 Saturday morning, then I just had a drink and tablets and slept again till the afternoon. My phone rang twice and I couldn't be bothered to answer it, I just wanted to be left alone to sleep!.
Sunday was the same I only got up to have a drink, tablets and cigarette's, I did see Jon and Sarah for 30mins, they popped in as they had come to Machynlleth to look at a flat.
After that I went back to bed.
I had made plans for my days off, but I did none of them. Last week was what I call a Black week
I hope this week is going to be better.
I woke again drenched so had to wash my hair before work, i just pulled the duvet back and opened the window so it would freshen my bed. I can't keep up with all the washing of bedding and clothes.
The Advice Centre was busy and we also had The Charity stall on the market, we did a raffle and it went well. I got home from work Wednesday at 5pm, I was exhausted, plus I had family concerns which were and still are a worry to me. I just wish I could clear my mind so it rested!.I had a sandwich and a drink and a couple of cigarette's and went to bed, however it wasn't a rest full sleep, I kept waking from nightmares that seemed so real it took me a few minutes to realise they were only dreams. I felt very fatigued physically and totally drained mentally.
Thursday day time I just slept, Bob came over, I think he was worried about me, he made soup for us and I got up, had a wash, he washed my hair again for me. I went to a friends house for an hour or so in the evening, she was having a bodyshop party. I did enjoy it once I got their, I just felt so tired.
Thursday night was the same, I kept having nightmares and waking dripping with sweat and with the shakes, in the end I got up at about 5pm, as I couldn't stand it anymore. My legs and arms hurt and ached, I felt like I had been thrashing about about during the nightmares.
By the time I went to work on Friday I felt as though I should be going back to bed. To make matters worse, in the afternoon we had loads of clients, so we were late finishing.
When I got back to the flat I had a drink and a cigarette and went to bed, I didn't wake till 4.30 Saturday morning, then I just had a drink and tablets and slept again till the afternoon. My phone rang twice and I couldn't be bothered to answer it, I just wanted to be left alone to sleep!.
Sunday was the same I only got up to have a drink, tablets and cigarette's, I did see Jon and Sarah for 30mins, they popped in as they had come to Machynlleth to look at a flat.
After that I went back to bed.
I had made plans for my days off, but I did none of them. Last week was what I call a Black week
I hope this week is going to be better.
Monday, 14 November 2011
Not the good weekend I had wanted for M.E
Saturday, my body or brain did not want to get up, I think my body gets used to my routine and know it can do nothing when I'm not at work! Though after a while my brain did kick in because I had promised Bobby I would go to Aberystwyth to collect his Christmas present to his dad. I tried to fool my body and let it have a couple more hours rest.
I got up at 9.00am instead of 7.00am which I do on a work day. It was a lovely sunny bright day and I was looking forward to going to Aberystwyth, had it all planned what I was going to do and which shops I was going in.
I got ready and got on the 10.30am bus which would get me into Aber at 11.30am. Once on the bus its not long before I'm falling asleep! Whenever I travel in a car or bus I'm asleep within 5 minutes! However each time the bus stops my eyes sort of open and I realise I'm not their yet so off I go again!
Once I get their I need to have a strong coffee to try and wake me up. I decide to sit outside a cafe so I can have a couple of cigerettes while I people watch for half and hour or so.
I could have fallen asleep sat their, but I made myself get up and go and get the present and blank dvds that Bob wanted.
Two shops and I was done in, I knew I had to get back to the bus stop, my legs didn't want to work so it was a slow process, by the time I had got their I was dripping in sweat, hair was stuck to my head and face, luckily their was a seat left so at least I could sit down.
People looked and stared, but not one of them asked if I was okay. I could feel myself getting upset and was biting the side of my mouth so I wouldn't cry and be more of an exhabition show.
The bus came and I got on, on the way back I was in to much pain with my legs and back to sleep.
Once I got to Machynlleth I sat on a bench having a cigerette, people watching while I waited for friends, Nicky and Charm, didn't have to wait too long, Nicky looked great she had been to have her hair done and had some lovely colours put in. We had a few laughs, Charm wanted to go to the conker night, that night, cos last year she came second and to prove it Nicky stated that also had bruises down her arm from where the conker hit her, so good luck to Charm.
We chatted for about an hour and it cheered me up, but by then I was so tired. I got back to the flat about 2.30pm and went and got into bed.
I woke a couple of hours later took my quilt and pillow in the lounge and lay on the sofa waiting for the football to start.
I had one eye open the other closed and was listening to the footbal, I did wake up a bit more when Englands Frank Lampard scored. I needed a cup of tea and a cigerette after that shock. I had a bowl of Alpen cereal, that was the first thing I had eaten that day.
Once the game ended I had another cigerette and tablets and painkillers and went to be. I woke about 3.am dripping and shaking, so made a cup of tea and a slice of toast with peanut butter spread all over it, was quite nice!. I got in the other side of the bed as my side was soaked.I slept till 10.30am, I got out of bed, had some Alpen, cup of tea and a couple of ciggerettes, I felt like I'd been to an allnight party and then crawled, literally back into bed. I stayed their till 3.30pm. I had to get myself up whether I wanted to or not because I was desperate for a bath. I stripped my bed as the bath was filling up and opened the bedroom window wide to let in some fresh air!.
Sunday was turning into a not so good day for me, no energy, smelly and I need to get myself in the bath and out again. I managed sort of but hurt my back in the process. I did feel better and smelled a lot nicer, but it had taken so much energy from me. I just found a huge towel, wrapped it round me and watched TV for a few minutes. I knew I had to make my bed up so I started slowly, first doing all 4 pillow cases and the bottom sheet, that was enough for while. I needed to rest before I got the duvet cover on the duvet. Its things like this that get me mad, I used to do all this so easily and now I have to rest and do it in stages. I did the duvet but by the time it was done I was dripping with sweat, my stuck to my face and the muscles in my arms hurting like hell!
I had a drink took my night time tablets and painkillers had a cigerette and went to bed. It was one of those nights where if I had stayed awake I would have got mad at myself.
Luckily for me sleep won, and I woke just before the alarm on Monday morning.
I got up at 9.00am instead of 7.00am which I do on a work day. It was a lovely sunny bright day and I was looking forward to going to Aberystwyth, had it all planned what I was going to do and which shops I was going in.
I got ready and got on the 10.30am bus which would get me into Aber at 11.30am. Once on the bus its not long before I'm falling asleep! Whenever I travel in a car or bus I'm asleep within 5 minutes! However each time the bus stops my eyes sort of open and I realise I'm not their yet so off I go again!
Once I get their I need to have a strong coffee to try and wake me up. I decide to sit outside a cafe so I can have a couple of cigerettes while I people watch for half and hour or so.
I could have fallen asleep sat their, but I made myself get up and go and get the present and blank dvds that Bob wanted.
Two shops and I was done in, I knew I had to get back to the bus stop, my legs didn't want to work so it was a slow process, by the time I had got their I was dripping in sweat, hair was stuck to my head and face, luckily their was a seat left so at least I could sit down.
People looked and stared, but not one of them asked if I was okay. I could feel myself getting upset and was biting the side of my mouth so I wouldn't cry and be more of an exhabition show.
The bus came and I got on, on the way back I was in to much pain with my legs and back to sleep.
Once I got to Machynlleth I sat on a bench having a cigerette, people watching while I waited for friends, Nicky and Charm, didn't have to wait too long, Nicky looked great she had been to have her hair done and had some lovely colours put in. We had a few laughs, Charm wanted to go to the conker night, that night, cos last year she came second and to prove it Nicky stated that also had bruises down her arm from where the conker hit her, so good luck to Charm.
We chatted for about an hour and it cheered me up, but by then I was so tired. I got back to the flat about 2.30pm and went and got into bed.
I woke a couple of hours later took my quilt and pillow in the lounge and lay on the sofa waiting for the football to start.
I had one eye open the other closed and was listening to the footbal, I did wake up a bit more when Englands Frank Lampard scored. I needed a cup of tea and a cigerette after that shock. I had a bowl of Alpen cereal, that was the first thing I had eaten that day.
Once the game ended I had another cigerette and tablets and painkillers and went to be. I woke about 3.am dripping and shaking, so made a cup of tea and a slice of toast with peanut butter spread all over it, was quite nice!. I got in the other side of the bed as my side was soaked.I slept till 10.30am, I got out of bed, had some Alpen, cup of tea and a couple of ciggerettes, I felt like I'd been to an allnight party and then crawled, literally back into bed. I stayed their till 3.30pm. I had to get myself up whether I wanted to or not because I was desperate for a bath. I stripped my bed as the bath was filling up and opened the bedroom window wide to let in some fresh air!.
Sunday was turning into a not so good day for me, no energy, smelly and I need to get myself in the bath and out again. I managed sort of but hurt my back in the process. I did feel better and smelled a lot nicer, but it had taken so much energy from me. I just found a huge towel, wrapped it round me and watched TV for a few minutes. I knew I had to make my bed up so I started slowly, first doing all 4 pillow cases and the bottom sheet, that was enough for while. I needed to rest before I got the duvet cover on the duvet. Its things like this that get me mad, I used to do all this so easily and now I have to rest and do it in stages. I did the duvet but by the time it was done I was dripping with sweat, my stuck to my face and the muscles in my arms hurting like hell!
I had a drink took my night time tablets and painkillers had a cigerette and went to bed. It was one of those nights where if I had stayed awake I would have got mad at myself.
Luckily for me sleep won, and I woke just before the alarm on Monday morning.
Friday, 11 November 2011
M.E. and a great end to a lovely week
Monday morning Bobby texted me at 6.30am to tell me he had arrived at Birmingham. I dozed off again till 7.00am then the alarm came to life making its awful noise, my body did not want to move so it was a struggle to get up, washed and dressed. After my breakfast and two cups of tea and two cigarettes I went to work.
I was excited about Bobby coming home and found myself clock watching most of the day. Eventually 2.30pm came and I left work and went back to my flat where Bobby and Bob were waiting for me.
Even at 23 years he still gives me a kiss and hug when he sees me, where ever we meet up and wouldn't be embarrassed if his friends were with him.
Later we went out with friends for a meal at the local Indian restaurant, it was a good night with good food and great company.
We all ate that much we could hardly move afterwards. We always have the poppadoms and pickles and sauces, then we three had the shish kebab starters, then i had Tandoori mixed grill with aloo gobi, Bobby had chicken balti and Bob had the chicken buna, we never look at the menu, we always have the same meal. I have been with friends and we had a banquet, which is a mixture of starters and three main courses different rices and nam breads.
Photo is of me and Bobby before going out for our meal.
Later friends took Bob back to Cemmaes and Booby stayed at my flat.
Bob and Bobby in the photo.
Bob came to the flat Tuesday morning and had quite a hard job of getting me and Bobby to up out of bed. Bobby and I and talked for a couple of hours so it was about 1.00am before we went to bed. We got up about 10.00am, but it was nearly midday before we went to Aberystwyth to do Christmas shopping. Because Bobby will be working Christmas we decided to get Bobby his presents and give them to him.
He chose a shirt from "Next" he didn't like any of the jeans so he got a pair he liked from "Burton's" We went to a lovely cafe and had the best custard slices ever. If any of you go to Aberystwyth pop into The Penguin Cafe and have a custard slice, they are gorgeous!
After going to two shops I was shattered so food shopping never happened. Bob drove us back to my flat and I went to bed. Bobby stayed with Bob in Cemmaes as they were spending Wednesday fishing. I only got up later for tablets and a drink, I slept all night and woke at 7.00am Wednesday. The shopping trip and going out for a meal had taken its toll, but I am still glad I went as I enjoyed it.
I woke with sore stiff muscles, which hurt like hell when I walked or moved my arms, my right ankle joint felt like it was going to crack when I put weight on it, it took me ages to get ready and to get to work, I got through it by taking more painkillers after two hours rather than waiting for four hours. I know that's not a good idea, but I couldn't cope with the pain. By the afternoon it had got easier to walk, so after work I visited my friend cath for a while, then Bob and Bobby came for me and we went to my flat. The flat was lovely and clean and smelled clean and fresh, my cleaner had been while I was working. Once a fortnight she cleans for two hours and I pay £16 I think its great because their is no way I could do it myself. Bobby had asked me what I wanted for Christmas, so I thought about it and decided on a foot spa. I really think I will use it a lot and hopefully my feet will enjoy it!
Bob took Bobby to the train station at 5.30, I didn't go as I was too tired and I get all emotional when he goes. I had a sandwich and went to bed. Bobby texted me when he got to Birmingham to say the bus had been delayed.
I got up about 3.00am Thursday morning and texted Bobby to where he was on his long journey back to Aberdeen. He wasn't happy as he hadn't long left Birmingham!. I had a drink, some painkillers and a couple of cigarettes and then went back to bed. Its as if my body knows when I have a day off from work, I didn't wake again till about midday, even then I had to force myself to get out of bed. I had to go out, to pay my rent and buy some food. I did this in a haze of "brain fog" got back to the flat, had a drink, some toast a cigarette and then went back to bed till about 6.30pm. I wasn't up for more than a couple of hours, I did manage to have an Epsom's salt bath and once I was dry I went back to bed. I rang bobby before I fell asleep and he told me that he hadn't got back to Aberdeen till 1.30pm and he had to go straight to work and was working till 9.00pm.
I think all the sleep did me good as I woke this morning before the alarm and I didn't have "brain fog" in fact I felt quite bright, washed my hair that stank of sweat, made my lunch, had a cigarette and an extra cup of tea before I left for work.
Work was great today, it started brilliantly, I opened the post, and I had to read the one letter again before I believed it. Since we went independent from being a Citizens Advice Bureaus we had not been funded by the local council. The letter that i had read twice was from Powys county council, stating that they were giving us £5000 for the rest of the financial year, and that they now recognised what we did for our community! In all my excitement, I mis dialled my bosses phone number twice before I got through to her. As the staff came in I told them all and showed the letter to each of them, the excitement just grew all day, by the time we closed I think most of us, not just me were shattered.
Bob was at the flat when I got in, and I told him the good news, he was thrilled for us too as he knows what a struggle it has been for us to get money to stay open.
He noticed my ankle was swollen so he massaged it for me and we chatted and laughed about some of the funny things our kids have done. It was a lovely couple of hours. Jon came for a coffee, he had been busy at the garage. Machynlleth had been busy all day as the big car rally had been on and is still going on tonight. Today has been a lovely day for a lot of us, wonder how the weekend is going to be?
I was excited about Bobby coming home and found myself clock watching most of the day. Eventually 2.30pm came and I left work and went back to my flat where Bobby and Bob were waiting for me.
Even at 23 years he still gives me a kiss and hug when he sees me, where ever we meet up and wouldn't be embarrassed if his friends were with him.
Later we went out with friends for a meal at the local Indian restaurant, it was a good night with good food and great company.
Photo is of me and Bobby before going out for our meal.
Bob and Bobby in the photo.
Bob came to the flat Tuesday morning and had quite a hard job of getting me and Bobby to up out of bed. Bobby and I and talked for a couple of hours so it was about 1.00am before we went to bed. We got up about 10.00am, but it was nearly midday before we went to Aberystwyth to do Christmas shopping. Because Bobby will be working Christmas we decided to get Bobby his presents and give them to him.
He chose a shirt from "Next" he didn't like any of the jeans so he got a pair he liked from "Burton's" We went to a lovely cafe and had the best custard slices ever. If any of you go to Aberystwyth pop into The Penguin Cafe and have a custard slice, they are gorgeous!
After going to two shops I was shattered so food shopping never happened. Bob drove us back to my flat and I went to bed. Bobby stayed with Bob in Cemmaes as they were spending Wednesday fishing. I only got up later for tablets and a drink, I slept all night and woke at 7.00am Wednesday. The shopping trip and going out for a meal had taken its toll, but I am still glad I went as I enjoyed it.
I woke with sore stiff muscles, which hurt like hell when I walked or moved my arms, my right ankle joint felt like it was going to crack when I put weight on it, it took me ages to get ready and to get to work, I got through it by taking more painkillers after two hours rather than waiting for four hours. I know that's not a good idea, but I couldn't cope with the pain. By the afternoon it had got easier to walk, so after work I visited my friend cath for a while, then Bob and Bobby came for me and we went to my flat. The flat was lovely and clean and smelled clean and fresh, my cleaner had been while I was working. Once a fortnight she cleans for two hours and I pay £16 I think its great because their is no way I could do it myself. Bobby had asked me what I wanted for Christmas, so I thought about it and decided on a foot spa. I really think I will use it a lot and hopefully my feet will enjoy it!
Bob took Bobby to the train station at 5.30, I didn't go as I was too tired and I get all emotional when he goes. I had a sandwich and went to bed. Bobby texted me when he got to Birmingham to say the bus had been delayed.
I got up about 3.00am Thursday morning and texted Bobby to where he was on his long journey back to Aberdeen. He wasn't happy as he hadn't long left Birmingham!. I had a drink, some painkillers and a couple of cigarettes and then went back to bed. Its as if my body knows when I have a day off from work, I didn't wake again till about midday, even then I had to force myself to get out of bed. I had to go out, to pay my rent and buy some food. I did this in a haze of "brain fog" got back to the flat, had a drink, some toast a cigarette and then went back to bed till about 6.30pm. I wasn't up for more than a couple of hours, I did manage to have an Epsom's salt bath and once I was dry I went back to bed. I rang bobby before I fell asleep and he told me that he hadn't got back to Aberdeen till 1.30pm and he had to go straight to work and was working till 9.00pm.
I think all the sleep did me good as I woke this morning before the alarm and I didn't have "brain fog" in fact I felt quite bright, washed my hair that stank of sweat, made my lunch, had a cigarette and an extra cup of tea before I left for work.
Work was great today, it started brilliantly, I opened the post, and I had to read the one letter again before I believed it. Since we went independent from being a Citizens Advice Bureaus we had not been funded by the local council. The letter that i had read twice was from Powys county council, stating that they were giving us £5000 for the rest of the financial year, and that they now recognised what we did for our community! In all my excitement, I mis dialled my bosses phone number twice before I got through to her. As the staff came in I told them all and showed the letter to each of them, the excitement just grew all day, by the time we closed I think most of us, not just me were shattered.
Bob was at the flat when I got in, and I told him the good news, he was thrilled for us too as he knows what a struggle it has been for us to get money to stay open.
He noticed my ankle was swollen so he massaged it for me and we chatted and laughed about some of the funny things our kids have done. It was a lovely couple of hours. Jon came for a coffee, he had been busy at the garage. Machynlleth had been busy all day as the big car rally had been on and is still going on tonight. Today has been a lovely day for a lot of us, wonder how the weekend is going to be?
Monday, 7 November 2011
Stupid M.E
Saturday morning I woke with brain fog, aching sore muscles and I still felt tired. I got up just before 10.00am had a cup of tea and a couple of cigarettes and my tablets, then the phone rang, the person stated he was from Windows Care 2 and they had noticed that I had been having problems with my computer as I had sent in a number of Error reports, which I had, I remember quite a few times this pop up had appeared asking whether I wanted to send in an error report and I had clicked, send.
The man on the phone told me to hold down the windows flag on the keyboard and press the letter "R" at the same time. I did this and he told me to enter a sequence of numbers, again I did this, he was telling me that my computer was sending out malicious emails and was under threat from being hacked. I was quite shocked and worried. He then asked me how old my computer was and I told him 8 years. He then told me to look at the screen and asked could I see all the red alerts and yellow triangles which were viruses. I looked at it all and I panicked. He then told me that because I had had my computer 8 years, the Windows operating System was out of license and that I had to pay £80 to get a new one or my computer would not work, it would just stop. He wanted all my details, date of birth, telephone number etc and I gave it all to him. Then he said a "pop up" would appear when payment had gone through paypal, and this "pop up" was their technician "Bob Ainsley" and I could chat to him about any concerns I had. Well this "pop up" came and took over using my mouse and it was amazing to watch, he went through all my computer and he typed "how lucky I was that I hadn't been hacked" but now it would be okay and that I had to "run" this programme every 15 days , he even pointed the arrow of the mouse to the icon I had to click on to do it.
They finished and I thanked them so much and that I was so grateful to them for ringing!
I thought I had better ring Bob and tell him all about it, well I rang Bob but had brain fog and couldn't remember what I had rang him for. About an hour later I was getting dressed and Jon arrived, we decided to go and watch Machynlleth play football, they lost 5-1 and we left about 5 minutes before the end as I was cold and tired.
Jon then went off to see Bob in Cemmaes and I went to bed for a couple of hours.
I woke up feeling brighter than in the morning, maybe the fresh air had helped.
I then remembered I needed to ring Bob, well I only got half way through the first sentence and he said," love you have been hacked" I argued and told him I hadn't, that it was Windows that had rang me etc, I told him how I had given them all my details and just as I said that I too realised.....yes I had been done and I had helped them and I had paid them £80!
It was as if the brain fog had lifted and I saw the light! With that I couldn't help it I cried and cried. Bob rang me back, he had borrowed a friends car and was coming up to the flat, he told me to shut the computer down.
He told me I needed to use another computer and change all my passwords to everything, so I got the keys to work and we went over and changed everything, bank account passwords, credit card passwords, store accounts, email passwords everything. I felt sick and so stupid, before when anyone rang me wanting personal details I always told them to write to me and then I would think about it.
I couldn't believe I had done it. I was lucky. I rang the telephone number they gave me and an Asian speaking lady on a voice machine informed me that all advisers were busy, no name of the company or welcome to Blah Blah Blah.
I went to bed feeling very tired and worn out.
Bob then took my computer home and took everything off it, he found the programme Windows Care 2 had put on and he put a Nortons virus protection on then ran that programme, over 800 viruses were on it.
He had to take everything off my computer, think it took him quite a few hours.
So everyone beware of phone calls especially the ones that ask for all your details and I won't be clicking "send error reports" either.
Sunday I woke early before 7.00am had a drink and cigarette and went back to bed till 2.00pm. I woke dripping with sweat, the sheet on my bed was soaking wet, so I stripped it off the bed and left the window open to air the mattress. It was a beautiful sunny afternoon, I wished i had the energy to go out for a walk, but I didn't, all I managed to do was hang the sheet and duvet cover on the washing line. I lay on the sofa most of the day watching TV and sleeping. I thought of Bobby, he would be leaving Aberdeen soon and travelling through the night, he gets to Birmingham at 6.45am then waits for a train to Machynlleth, he gets here at 11.00am, I went to bed just after 9.00pm as I was so tired, I ached from head to foot. I woke at 3.00am desperate for a drink, so I had a can of coke to quench my thirst and decided to surprise Bobby by sending him a text. Can't wait to see him .
The man on the phone told me to hold down the windows flag on the keyboard and press the letter "R" at the same time. I did this and he told me to enter a sequence of numbers, again I did this, he was telling me that my computer was sending out malicious emails and was under threat from being hacked. I was quite shocked and worried. He then asked me how old my computer was and I told him 8 years. He then told me to look at the screen and asked could I see all the red alerts and yellow triangles which were viruses. I looked at it all and I panicked. He then told me that because I had had my computer 8 years, the Windows operating System was out of license and that I had to pay £80 to get a new one or my computer would not work, it would just stop. He wanted all my details, date of birth, telephone number etc and I gave it all to him. Then he said a "pop up" would appear when payment had gone through paypal, and this "pop up" was their technician "Bob Ainsley" and I could chat to him about any concerns I had. Well this "pop up" came and took over using my mouse and it was amazing to watch, he went through all my computer and he typed "how lucky I was that I hadn't been hacked" but now it would be okay and that I had to "run" this programme every 15 days , he even pointed the arrow of the mouse to the icon I had to click on to do it.
They finished and I thanked them so much and that I was so grateful to them for ringing!
I thought I had better ring Bob and tell him all about it, well I rang Bob but had brain fog and couldn't remember what I had rang him for. About an hour later I was getting dressed and Jon arrived, we decided to go and watch Machynlleth play football, they lost 5-1 and we left about 5 minutes before the end as I was cold and tired.
Jon then went off to see Bob in Cemmaes and I went to bed for a couple of hours.
I woke up feeling brighter than in the morning, maybe the fresh air had helped.
I then remembered I needed to ring Bob, well I only got half way through the first sentence and he said," love you have been hacked" I argued and told him I hadn't, that it was Windows that had rang me etc, I told him how I had given them all my details and just as I said that I too realised.....yes I had been done and I had helped them and I had paid them £80!
It was as if the brain fog had lifted and I saw the light! With that I couldn't help it I cried and cried. Bob rang me back, he had borrowed a friends car and was coming up to the flat, he told me to shut the computer down.
He told me I needed to use another computer and change all my passwords to everything, so I got the keys to work and we went over and changed everything, bank account passwords, credit card passwords, store accounts, email passwords everything. I felt sick and so stupid, before when anyone rang me wanting personal details I always told them to write to me and then I would think about it.
I couldn't believe I had done it. I was lucky. I rang the telephone number they gave me and an Asian speaking lady on a voice machine informed me that all advisers were busy, no name of the company or welcome to Blah Blah Blah.
I went to bed feeling very tired and worn out.
Bob then took my computer home and took everything off it, he found the programme Windows Care 2 had put on and he put a Nortons virus protection on then ran that programme, over 800 viruses were on it.
He had to take everything off my computer, think it took him quite a few hours.
So everyone beware of phone calls especially the ones that ask for all your details and I won't be clicking "send error reports" either.
Sunday I woke early before 7.00am had a drink and cigarette and went back to bed till 2.00pm. I woke dripping with sweat, the sheet on my bed was soaking wet, so I stripped it off the bed and left the window open to air the mattress. It was a beautiful sunny afternoon, I wished i had the energy to go out for a walk, but I didn't, all I managed to do was hang the sheet and duvet cover on the washing line. I lay on the sofa most of the day watching TV and sleeping. I thought of Bobby, he would be leaving Aberdeen soon and travelling through the night, he gets to Birmingham at 6.45am then waits for a train to Machynlleth, he gets here at 11.00am, I went to bed just after 9.00pm as I was so tired, I ached from head to foot. I woke at 3.00am desperate for a drink, so I had a can of coke to quench my thirst and decided to surprise Bobby by sending him a text. Can't wait to see him .
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