I was feeling okay when I went to bed Sunday night, I had been asleep for about three hours when I woke with my stomach feeling like it was turning over, I knew I was going to vomit and just made it to the bathroom in time, then while brushing my teeth, the other end started! That's enough of the graphics, but this went on every half hour till 7.30am.
It knocked me for six to be honest, I know nobody likes vomiting. but I panic and it frightens me, by the morning I felt so weak, I was still rushing to the loo but at least the sickness had stopped.I think I have strained my stomach muscles as they feel very sore.
This is another of those times that I wished I wasn't on my own, if I had been at home with Bob he would have looked after me, rubbed my back, and washed my hair, he was so good at looking after me. Its so hard to look after myself when I feel like this, then clean up the bathroom too.
I haven't dared eat anything and have only had a couple of teas, the rest I have drank is water.
I couldn't go to work so I stayed in bed a while, then got up and somehow got into the bath, soaked and then dreaded the getting out, took a while but eventually managed.
The day has seemed like two days to me my body is knackered but guess what ....my brain isn't! My brain has had too much time today and its made me dwell on things I don't want to think about.
My thinking today has been all over the place like, how will I manage as I get older, what if I die and nobody knows for days etc, loads of thought along the same line, I hate it when I'm like this, I have always been told " you think too much" " you worry about things that haven't even happened yet"
I wish someone could give me answers as to why I'm like this, I wish I wasn't
Night everybody
xx
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