Was a bad night last night, my arm hurt like hell, the muscles in my forearms were swollen and very painful. I know why, too much typing, wouldn't be too much for a "normal" person but it was for me! Also would my brain shut down.....no, so at 3.00am this morning I'm still awake and getting really angry with myself. One good thing though I didn't have to be up at 7.00am to go to work, a day off. Eventually I must have slept because the next thing I new I woke and it was 2.30pm!.I just lay their for about half an hour thinking about getting up out of bed. I was soaked again with sweat, I keep thinking that with all this sweating I do, I should be really thin! With the sweats comes the thirsts, I drink loads, no not all alcohol, coke, lemonade, loads of tea, I am never not thirsty, which seems a bit weird to me, but hey ho I just try to get on with it. I remember while I'm thinking about getting up about the treat I bought myself yesterday after the massage. Decleor cleanser, toner, moisturiser, oil and the night cream. So I had a go at pampering myself after I had washed. Must admit its very nice, my face feels lovely, must remember to do it tonight and put the night cream on.
Talk about remembering things, I knew I had to go out and pay my rent today. So I got ready to go out, weather was quite nice for a change, so I was looking forward to a walk and maybe a little mooch. Well mooch I did, chatted to one or two people in the street, picked up one or two things from the shop and got back to the flat. I need to have a rest so i just lay on the bed, then my mobile rang, it was my eldest son Richard, well I was a bit gobsmacked as he hadn't really bothered that much with me since I had left Bob. We had quite a good chat, then I lay down again.
Just as I lay down I remembered that I hadn't been to pay my rent, the one thing that I knew I had to do I had forgotten.
I get so frustrated with myself, my memory was so good, I used to remember phone numbers easily, yesterday I couldn't remember the name of the make of skin care that I had used.
My brain fog frightens me, to me its one of the worst symptoms.
I have ordered myself a M.E. bracelet. On one of the M.E. facebook groups I belong too, a woman makes jewellery, we choose what colours we want and what charms etc, think they are lovely, will try and get a photo of them.
I just had some soup and bread and a packet of crisps today, haven't felt hungry at all. Bobby, my youngest son is coming on Monday, so I'm looking forward to that, think I will need sleep before and after seeing him! He is a bit of a whirlwind.
I am going to try and sleep now, as I have got work tomorrow.
Talk to you again soon, take care everyone xxx
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