Friday I slept through my alarm clock and woke at 8.00am! I didn't get to sleep till about 4.ooam because of the pain and I had taken more painkillers. I had to have sugar puffs before I left for work otherwise I would be fainting about 10.00am. I made it to work for 9.10am so only 10 minutes late, I looked like a dripping ice pop because I had been trying to rush. I was still the first person into work so I made a cup of tea and just sat for 15 minutes to try and recover!
Work was slow in the morning which I quite liked as I had next month's rota to do, I managed to get it done and after lunch quite a few clients came.
Home time came and I knew where I was going ............bed....... after a cigarette and a cup of tea. I was so tired and fatigued both in body and brain.
I slept till 9.00pm, I woke dripping with sweat, boiling hot, shaking and feeling zombefied. I needed a drink I was so thirsty, so had lemonade ice cold and with ice cubes, it was so refreshing. Smoked a couple of cigarette's had my bedtime tablets and got in bed but on the dry cold side, I didn't have the energy to strip the bed then.
I vaguely remember waking on Saturday morning and just rolling over and going back to sleep.
I eventually woke and got up at 4.00pm. I smelled badly of body odeur, sweat was just running off me so I needed to have a bath, a wash just wouldn't be good enough. So I put 2 cups of Epsom salts and radox in the bath and ran the water. This when I need someones help, I can't manage getting in or out with out hurting myself, so I dread it, hope fully the housing association will soon fit me a shower..
I managed to get in, and once in, it felt wonderful. I'm not one for lying in the bath for ages as I feel its like lying in dirty water after a while so 20 minutes is enough for me. I pull the plug with my feet so the water starts to drain away, then start the process of getting myself out! Its not an easy task, I'm not the lightest of people at 14stone! 15 minutes later with a bruised arm and hip I'm out, smelling a lot nicer!.
I just wrap one of my huge towels round me and wait till I'm dry.
I went out with a couple of friends to watch an Adele Tribute singer, she was very good and in the second half she sang songs by other artists, we even danced to 3 songs , I haven't danced for quite a few years,I was enjoying it so much I thought " lets have a go" after 3 I had had enough, by 11.45pm I went home as I was feeling shattered, but at least I had been out and enjoyed it. I remembered to turn my clock back, had a cup of tea, took tablets and went to bed.
Sunday morning came and I could hardly move my arms or legs, the muscles in my arms were like big lumps, I couldn't even lift the kettle to put water in it or lift a cup to my mouth with being in severe pain.
I got a can of coke out the fridge and pulled the ring, that made me cry out in pain, I found some straws that I had bought for when Matthew came, but luckily I hadn't used them all.
I took my morning tablets and painkillers and went back to bed, where I just lay for hours and cried for most of the time.
I hate this illness so much, I try my hardest to work and just do normal things and maybe go out once in a while, but the payback I get makes me wonder is it worth it, I can honestly say Sunday was one of the worst days for quite a few years. All I could do was lie on my bed and rest, I hate days like that, yes because of the pain, but also because i get so bored just lying in bed. But that was my Sunday.
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