Monday, 21 November 2011

A Bad week for M.E.

I think last week was my worst week in a long long time physically and mentally.After work on Monday I just collapsed in bed and stayed their apart from getting a drink a couple of times.Tuesday I woke with sweats and shakes. Bob came over to do something on my computer, I did get up and have a drink with him but apart from that I stayed in bed till 4pm. When i got up I was drenched and so was my bed. Bob washed my hair for me and I changed the bedding. He went at 5.30pm, I had a bowl of Alpen and went back to bed till Wednesday morning.
I woke again drenched so had to wash my hair before work, i just pulled the duvet back and opened the window so it would freshen my bed. I can't keep up with all the washing of bedding and clothes.
The Advice Centre was busy and we also had The Charity stall on the market, we did a raffle and it went well. I got home from work Wednesday at 5pm, I was exhausted, plus I had family concerns which were and still are a worry to me. I just wish I could clear my mind so it rested!.I had a sandwich and a drink and a couple of cigarette's and went to bed, however it wasn't a rest full sleep, I kept waking from nightmares that seemed so real it took me a few minutes to realise they were only dreams. I felt very fatigued physically and totally drained mentally. 
Thursday day time I just slept, Bob came over, I think he was worried about me, he made soup for us and I got up, had a wash, he washed my hair again for me. I went to a friends house for an hour or so in the evening, she was having a bodyshop party. I did enjoy it once I got their, I just felt so tired.
Thursday night was the same, I kept having nightmares and waking dripping with sweat and with the shakes, in the end I got up at about 5pm, as I couldn't stand it anymore. My legs and arms hurt and ached, I felt like I had been thrashing about about during the nightmares.
By the time I went to work on Friday I felt as though I should be going back to bed. To make matters worse, in the afternoon we had loads of clients, so we were late finishing.
When I got back to the flat I had a drink and a cigarette and went to bed, I didn't wake till 4.30 Saturday morning, then I just had a drink and tablets and slept again till the afternoon. My phone rang twice and I couldn't be bothered to answer it, I just wanted to be left alone to sleep!.
Sunday was the same I only got up to have a drink, tablets and cigarette's, I did see Jon and Sarah for 30mins, they popped in as they had come to Machynlleth to look at a flat. 
After that I went back to bed.
I had made plans for my days off, but I did none of them. Last week was what I call a Black week
I hope this week is going to be better.

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